Dipping my Toes in the Water
When you think of spirituality, many things likely come to mind. Spirituality is a broad topic that is conceived from many different perspectives and experiences from around the world. Many of these beliefs have been passed on through the ages in the form of religious beliefs, cultural traditions, art, and family practice. If I were to ask each of you about your personal spiritual beliefs, I would get quite the variety of different answers.
I have been thinking about this project for many years and have put up and taken down a website already. This is my second website and I am older and wiser and the stars are aligning now for me to be a bit vulnerable (which makes me feel quite insecure and uncomfortable) and share my light with the world. It seems to me that the best way to move forward is to write honestly and not fret so much over the details or strive too much for perfection. That is why I am writing this introductory article in this way. I have learned to stop caring so much about what others may or may not think about me and Spirit has asked me to ground that lesson through physical action.
Allow me to share some things about myself and my goals for this website. My name is Beau. I am 25 years old and I live in the greater Minneapolis-Saint Paul metropolitan area. I grew up in rural east central Minnesota and attended public schools. My parents got divorced when I was three years old and I did not see my father very often. He passed away from lung cancer 10 years ago at 50 years old.
I have two siblings and my mother raised us mostly by herself. We were quite poor and moved around often. We were homeless several times and often did not have the essentials (housing, food, healthcare, transportation, etc.). I don’t share these things to gain sympathy from anybody, but I hope that by sharing my experiences for the highest good of all, that someone will connect with that and be healed, inspired, or given hope. I attended a small private Lutheran college in south central Minnesota for two years, then dropped out and worked for four and a half years before returning to school at a larger public university in the metro. I work full time as a Certified Nursing Assistant in a long-term care unit (and sometimes a transitional care unit).
I will write more about my experiences as this project evolves and as my posts are guided. I like to do oracle card readings for myself and I am a fan of many people on youtube who channel, read, or share spiritual insights. For more than a year, Spirit has been encouraging me to share my writing with others. The past week or so, Spirit has really been almost reprimanding me that I have been blessed with the gift of writing and expression and that I have a responsibility to share it. Our personal insights and experiences are not meant to be kept for ourselves. This website is put together at my own expense and effort and I am doing so in an effort to be of service to my fellow beings. Perhaps I will also learn some things in this process and feel some fulfillment and less lonely.
In consideration of these things, I apologize if this post (and any of my future posts) seem random, unpolished or frazzled, but I have learned that it is important for me to just do things sometimes, otherwise they are never completed, as I am endlessly striving for perfection (which obviously is unattainable). I hope that this gives you a better sense of me and how my unique mind (lol) works. I do have intentions of creating more polished and sensical posts (I even have topics planned and research started!), but it is also important for me to be able to write freely like this, unencumbered by restrictions, rules, or expectations. Though I do intend to do some research and include some sources, this is not an academic journal. It is a creative project and (hopefully) a community. I have plans to make it more interactive than simply reading blog posts, so this website will certainly evolve and grow. Stay tuned for more and have compassion for yourself and others.
Love and Light, my Spirit friends,
Beau
